The Benefits of Being Stupid

Lately, I've been thinking that.. I am stupid. 

More like, I've come to acknowledge and admit that I am stupid. 

And I blame UniMelb. Wtf, why full of smart people and make me feel stupid. And because my friends are all quite really smart also so it makes me feel is more stupid lah. 

It's like, the more I study, the more I feel stupid of myself because I realise I know very little of the world. 

I know I sound like as if I've got really low self-esteem and 自卑 (and more chinese words nowadays but nevermind lah, good attempt to improve it). I do at first but then I'm like, screw it, my skin is too thick to feel bad of myself. And hence, the journey to becoming a happy stupid person. 

I don't remember feeling a stupid person back in secondary school and during A-Levels days. I used to see myself as someone who's not that smart but not too stupid also lah. Like, I still know of some people who are less intelligent (wtf, my grammar fail cos' I was wondering if it was "less smart" or "less smarter". Then I went to Google and they use "less intelligent". My grammar teacher can kill me now. And I graduated from Convent school. Can double kill me now) than I am but I also know quite a lot who are smarter than me. And when I say smart, I mean it in an academic way. Cos' we are Asians, only know how to judge others' intelligence based on academic level. But after coming to uni, they bring smart to a whole new level cos' people and friends I know are not just academically strong, but like super smart in everything, knowledge lah, sports lah, this lah, that lah. I also blame it on our Malaysian education system lah, everyday only ask us to just memorise everything from our textbook and then vomit out in our exams without having any actual critical thinking (shifting blame to MOE). 

But flunyway, it's okay, I already admit that I am stupid. Admitting that I am stupid myself actually takes a lot of work and effort eh. Jenna Marbles, in one of her Youtube videos, said that once we start admitting that we are not the best and will never be, we will feel better and it would be like as if a huge weight has been lifted off from our shoulders. It's true what, sometimes we work so hard so that we are not that stupid but what's the point? What are we trying to prove anyway? As said by another friend of mine (wtf, I keep quoting a lot of stuffs from other people. I am so unoriginal. Need to cite them in the future), we have to deal with a lot of exams in our life, why worry for each of them?  We face problems everyday, they're pretty much unending one. 

After admitting that I am stupid, I actually started looking at life in a very simple way. There's a Cantonese saying that “傻人有傻福” (wtf, I dunno whether I type right or not, please correct me I am wrong. If I do, this proves that I really am stupid). It means "stupid people have stupid happiness". I think it is actually a really important thing in life to not just think too much and just be happy. It's just that not everyone can be like this. 

Because honestly, if you were to compare smart and stupid people, who do you think are happier? Definitely  the more stupid one lor, cos they think lesser, find lesser faults in others and just live life easily. Then the smart ones always think too much, find flaws in others and always thinking about the imperfections of life (ok lah, to defend the smart people, I know not all smart people are negative. There're some out there who are quite positive also). I know I sound like super philosophical and as if I am 80 years old and you're 18 but it's the truth ok. I am actually someone who thinks a lot, tend to find flaws in others and always focus on all the imperfections (but I am not smart ok). Nowadays, I am really trying to work hard towards becoming a more simple person (and hence more stupid than I ever did) cos I really see no point of having such high expectations on myself thinking that I could be happy but at the end, I will be even less happy. That's because I'll always always find someone smarter than me. I can't go on competing with others forever like that. This is what we always do, chasing something that we think we'll be happy about when we get it. It's like a race. We race with others thinking that once we win them, we'll be a happy person. But, after one race, there'll always be another race to run. And a lot of times, we don't even like the process of running, we just thought we'll be happy if we win it. Even if we do win it, almost immediately, we'll have to prepare for the next race and start all over again. If like that, how to be happy?

 Wtf, I sound very deep and wise now, so deep you can't see me. -.- 

See, that's why I am starting to embrace my own stupidity. Just like how girls should embrace their own bodies because no one is born perfect. 

Also, I think by being stupid, I am, in a very indirect way, helping my friends. The thing is, almost everyone think that they are stupid (especially Asians cos we always like to compare one) even though they are not (and trust me, almost ALL my friends are like that). So when you think that you are stupid, you will feel bad of yourself. This is when you should try to compare yourself with the stupid ones, you will feel better. So my friends can compare with me, so they feel better and happier about themselves. In 3 Idiots, I remember them saying that when friends get low marks in exams, we feel bad for them. But when we get lower than them, we feel even worse. 

See, I am spreading happiness to my friends, to the extent of my own happiness (ok lah, I admit I still get that little happy feeling when my results are good... which is pretty much nonexistent when I enter uni). Karma points plus 50.