"I know you, you're not gonna do that"

Have you ever had any friends who told you that? Especially close friends who're pretty close to you. They will tell you things like, "Hey, I know you. I've known you so long, you're not that kind of person. You won't do that".

Usually said by good or best friends. I've said things like that to my friends too. But the weird thing is, sometimes, I find it scary how someone will say things like that to me. What if I was really considering of doing the said thing? Like, I feel like slapping someone and then my friend would say, " I know you. You're not emotional like that. You're not gonna slap her". But what if I really do want to slap that person? What if I'm emotional like that?

I don't think anyone ever "know" their friends or even their family. No one really "know" another person in this world. Like, I don't think any of my friends really know me or even my family do. So sometimes, I find it scary what kind of image I have in their minds.What if I'm different from what they think I am? If they think I'm good, what if it's just be I only let them see the good side of me, probably cos there's no necessity for them to see the bad side of me? And if they think I'm bad? If they think I'm bad, I would want them to change but what can I do? Even family members, I don't think anyone really knows another person completely. We've heard of children who lied behind their parents back (we all done it before) but their parents would still believe them, thinking that, "He's my child. I know him. We won't do that".

The only person who knows you the most is probably yourself. Because you control your actions, your way of doing things in life. So when friends tell me they know you, nah, honestly, they don't. They're not you, they can't control your thoughts and actions. That's why I always believe that people change. Good to bad or bad to good, they will change and we can't just think that they're the kind of person we think they are, which leads to judging others. We judge others because we think we "know" them but we don't. Their image in our minds are just projections and not who they really are.

That's why I'm scared when my friends think they "know" me. I might not be as good as they think. I might do things which are out of their expectations and I might disappoint them. So, we should just have neutral thoughts on other people and stop figuring out their personalities like we're God like that.

 Hence, I'm gonna be an angel now and promise to stop gossip lesser about others (whoa, such big promise). After all, who are we to talk about others, especially when we haven't got solid proofs. It's not like I'm against about talking behind someone's back but I think even when gossiping we need to be smart enough. Like, when we want to talk bad about someone, we need to know WHY that person is bad. Can't just, oh, I just don't like her face, so I hate her. For me, it's fine to talk bad about someone when that person really did something bad and not exaggerated one. We need to let our anger anyway so probably speaking it out is the best. But anyway, hating someone for no solid reason really isn't very good (and ok, I'm not all innocent also, will have some self-reflection). Let's have a peaceful and happy world ah. Babai.