Ramblings That You Don't Wanna Read

There are a lot of times when I think that becoming a bad student is much better than becoming a good one. Back in IJC, almost all my friends are all goody-two-shoes. I mean, they don't really break the rules cos' usually, their job is to catch people who break the rules. So somehow, my circle of friends are people who are guai guai and pretty smart. They are all hardworking people and even if they're not, they don't spend their time doing some naughty stuffs.

We all know that teachers tend to remember bad students and extremely good students only. Anything in between, they don't really remember.
Becoming a not-so-good must have rocked. Because then you can reminisce your old schooling days on how you prank your friends and teachers, how you brought handphones to school and quickly hide it when you knew there's a spot check. And then you get to laugh at yourself because life were so fun (and for some, it's still fun).

For me, there's no such thing. As far as I can remember, I only study, go tuition, study, sleep and go to school. Not to say there's nothing for me reminisce but if I were a little more rebellious, I'm pretty sure I would have enjoyed my life even more. I never really got in contact with more than half a dozen of guys before college so there's nothing much to think about guys either.

I'm not a full-time nerd. I'm just normal and I don't give major problems to my parents. My exams are all okay so there's no worry either. I was in Science 2, mixed with a bunch of prefects who were perfect. And then because I was in an environment where there're so many people who are smarter (in IJC some more...), sometimes kiasu-ism takes over us. The better we are at something, the higher our expectations are. It gets higher and higher that sometimes, I forgot to tell myself it's okay to fail. It's okay to not be perfect.

And then I realise that life is not a textbook. I don't read it. I learn from it. That sometimes I should just be cool and let nature takes its course because that's when life rocks the most. Sometimes, I should just be more flexible and accept myself for who I am. I have my flaws. Everyone has flaws. But if I were to try to change my flaws so much up to the extend where I lose my identity, then I think it's not worth it. After all, like what Yasmin Ahmad said once:

"Life is imperfect but it's all these imperfections that make life beautiful"

I do my best and God will do the rest. XD