She Worked Hard

Do you know that Ai Yazawa used to have a hard life?
She couldn't find any jobs because her drawing sucked.
And today, I don't know if she still lead a hard life.
As far as I know, comic artists hardly lead nice life.
They draw and draw and draw and extend their deadlines.

And I can almost see my own future.
It's ironic to say, but I love the I-need-more-days-to-finish-my-comic life and I-need-more-money life. Alright, scratch that I-need-more-money life. No one love it when they don't have money.
And I love money.
For all I know, I hardly believe that I'll be rich in the future. It's not that I don't believe in myself. But I know what it feels like to take art and reality is harsh. I'm willing to compromise with reality on that. In the future, I might be drawing for three days straight, not sleep, have oily fugly hair, eyebags, pimples, BMI goes lower and many many more fugly stuffs... sigh...
If life is so hard, then why is it I still love art?