Reflections. to improve myself

People should know these stuffs about me. (That is, if they are my friends. Not enemies who have lots of free time hating people)

1. Ever felt like flashing your stuffs and showing of yourself sometimes? Well, that's what I often feel. Sometimes, I want to tell people that I have lots of manga a home(when, I don't really have that many), I am rich (when, I don't really save a lot, neither does my mom lets me spend money like running water tap) or I want to tell people that I am great. I should learn to be humble and understand that if I am that great, there are many greater than me. If I am pretty, there are many prettier than me. If I am smart, there are many smarter than me.
   
2. I feel like a selfish freak who cares only for herself most of the time. I think I should learn to be a bit more selfless and help people in need. I should also be more understanding and not be an ego. I should take experiences from anyone, even if she/ he is my junior and younger than me. I should stop assuming that the whole world owes me and I owe nothing to the world.
3. Sometimes, I am extremely rude, especially to my near and best friends. I would simply talk in an angry tone if I feel offended. Obviously, that hasn't help much in improving myself. Hence, I think I should not act according to emotions. Sometimes, if I reflect back whatever that happens, I realise it's my own fault and I've been behaving so rude.
4. The one thing which I should accept myself for who I am is that... I have an angry serious face. Maybe it's because I am rather hot-tempered (with pretty short patience), I am just plain unfriendly or sleepy or it's in my genes (or whatever reasons you can think of). Whatever it is, I should smile more because a smile a day keeps the sadness away. My angry serious face has caused a lot of misunderstanding among my friends. One of my friends told me that she was scared of me last time.. and I was like.. "Oh.. okay. Am I THAT scary??" And then only she realised I am not so scary after all. My librarians also thought that I was scary. When they knew me, only they realised I am more sampated than them. Sigh.. *sniff* I never knew I can be so scary.
5. Aside from being scary, I should stop getting so annoying. Because annoying people causes people to hate me and thus, supporting the reason why I appear to be scary and unfriendly.
   
6. I'm too grumpy in the morning. I should cheer myself up in the morning because my friends all deserve good morning greetings with a smile on my face.
7. I SHOULD STOP SAYING ABOUT HOW SLEEPY I AM ALL THE TIME. And about how little I sleep everytime although I get full 8 hours of sleep.
8. I've been talking really a lot and doing really little actions. I should motivate myself to take actions because without actions, I can't achieve my goals.
9. I've got to overcome my phobias of joining drawing competitions. I should have the courage to join competitions even if I draw badly and I don't win. And I should also cut the "beauty lies in the eyes of beholder so I don't need to join a competition to judge if I am good in drawing" crap.
10. I should start appreciating my friends when they push my to my limits. When they start asking, "Yeok Ho, what happens to your goals for this month?" or "Yeok Ho, I know you're not going to study. You say only one lah" , I have to be motivated to achieve my goals. Thus, thank you, Sherilynn, for the "Yeok Ho, I know you're not going to study. You say only one lah" motivation. (are you touched?!! Cry, Sherilynn, cry... )
    

Phew.. so much for my self-reflection.

Couture.

Here comes another video because I have nothing to talk about.



Can you hear the beautiful music of these clothes?
Ahh... beautiful, mesmerizing, as always.

The Buddha Himself is Great.

Who wouldn't love this??!!!
I'm hyperventilating!!

I think the one of the biggest challenges in my life is to draw a picture deep inside from my heart.

Sometimes, we don't aim aim to improve but to draw something out of love.
I love children's drawing!

"Friends are the one who comes in when the rest of the world goes out."

Do you realise how easy it is for us to say "Friends Forever", only to separate 3 days later?
Do you also realise how easy it is for us to say "I love you forever", only to break up 3 days later?

Actions are hard. That's the challenging part in our life. I realise how easy it is for me to always tell my friends that I'm going to do this, do that. Only then, I found out that things are not that easy after all. Love is not only something to be felt. Love needs effort. Be it friendship, family, things, place, your partner, we need to work hard to maintain the love in us.

It's always so easy to say that I love something. But, somehow, I will feel lazy to keep the love. Actions. This word alone scares me to death.

Because there's no use saying anything if there's not actions.
There's no use saying that I love my family if I don't take actions towards loving them.
There's no use saying that our friendship will last forever if we don't work hard to maintain it.
There's no use saying that I love drawing if I keep procrastinating.
There's no use saying that I am successful if I don't even dare to overcome my fears.

I should be more careful in things that I'm going to say.
Life's a bitch after all. No one cares how much you talk. No one cares about you hardwork.
People only care about results.

"The greatest sin is to think yourself weak." -Vivekananda-

Tutu Isn't Dead

updated!! I've been abandoning for a few months.You guys should go read the posts there. Anyway, this time is about a new local movie. So, go watch the trailer! XD

Goaldies!!

"If I can't, then I must."

Zac asked me to mention his name here.
Soo.....

Hi, Zac!!

Anyway, my school's having an anime convention this Sunday.
If any of you guys interested, you can contact the prefects in our school (IJC, Melaka) or if you don't know any, just tell me through my chatbox. I'll help you out.

Hmm.. so as I said in my goal for this month, I'm going to have more blog posts.

I was rereading my magic notes that I got in IAG last two years. And the file, the books and the letters from my parents and myself. And you know, it kinda reminds me back in my camp.
And those funny times, those emotional moments and times when we overcome our fears

I guess reading through all these are good. Because I'm like.. "Alamak.. I went to camp and I'm still slacking. My parents must be really disappointed." So, after reading these, I'm pretty inspired already. I promise to myself, I will study really hard for my Trials after the holidays (because I am collecting my energy by resting now).

XD
Good luck, people! Let us hope that we achieve our goals!!

Meditations

My Goals for June:

1) Study for Trial Exams
2) Practice drawing at the least 6 days a week
3) Finish up my homework.
4) Be a responsible librarian.
5) Learn to tolerate kids even if they sometimes annoy the heck out of me.
6) Reduce sleeping time. Use the time for drawing.
7) Stop showing off so much.
8) Charity work.
9) More blog posts. More inspiring ones.

What I learnt in coach training:

1) Always laugh at jokes. Even if they are not funny. It makes things so much easier.
2) There are things that make sense in life. But mostly don't.
3) Be calm no matter what happens.
4) Self-entertainment.
5) Learn from mistakes.
6) Failure Only learning experience.
7) Choices have consequences.
8) Remember that when consequences are given to the wrong doer, I have to have make sure that she/he learns something from it.
9) Be myself. Acting is useless.
10) The world doesn't revolve around me.
11) Oh, just laugh at strangers! They might be my friends!
12) One for all, all for one.

I learnt a LOT!!
Yippee!!

Of Lost Files and Coach Training

"Fake it till you make it!" -Adam Khoo-

I'm back from the coach training!
Well, it ended on Sunday actually but I was:

1) too tired to blog
2) too lazy to blog
3) nothing to blog about

Well, the happy thing is that now I'm back at home.
The not-so-sad-but-not-so-happy-too news is that I didn't get to coach.

And the freaking sad thing is that there is an important folder in my computer that got lost suddenly and I don't know why! Anyway, the thing is, this morning, when I wanted to watch Gossip Girl and Eden of the East (which I downloaded), I couldn't find the whole folder! I dunno why!!!

Is there anyone who can help me out? How can I find the "lost" folder which had gone to some other galaxy?
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Now, now, I'm pretty sure some of you out here are wondering what was I doing in coach training?
The first day was kinda okay. All we did was to sit down and listen to Jeff. For someone who only goes to coach training 2 years after her camp, I basically forgot 60% of what I learnt. So going to coach training is a good way to revise. Not to mention is free too!
I love the second day! We had a lot of running here and there. And we learnt quite a lot of ways on how we are going to handle the participants. Jeff's a good trainer, I have to say. He is... good. And funny. And many many more.
Well, I also knew a number of friends there who are all really really good. And oh, did I mention that KL kids are so damn cute? Their hair are cute, their shirts are cute, their pants are cute, their bags are cute, their glasses are cute, their shoes are cute, their eyes are cute and .. sigh.. so so so so cute!!