Saturday Night.

"I don't know why people discriminate each other. Really, what's the point? Aren't we all the same, creation of God?"

Tonight is a boring Saturday night.And boring Saturdays means craps!!
The reason why these few days are boring is most probably because I haven't watched Code Geass R2 yet.

And I'm dying.

DIE.

Anyway, my family and I just went to eat Korean food. I have to admit that Korean food is not my cup of tea. They have ... rice tea and ginseng tea. How do I know it? Because while we were almost finishing out meal, a Korean woman in her Korean-ish English asked us, "Ginseng tea?Ginseng tea?". But because we didn't know what she was talking, we were like, "What?!"

And then she asked the translator to translate it for us. And he said, the tea we drank were rice tea.(??!!!) I've never heard of it before. Anyway, so he asked us if we would like Ginseng tea... I didn't know Korean people drink 2 types of tea in a meal.

It's weird.

Lately, I've been bored out of my life. On Monday, I had this severe sore throat. I couldn't even make a tiny speck of sound. It seems like my friends were pretty happy with the fact that I can't make any sound.

"Deep down inside, I'm just a girl. A 16-year-old girl."

Friends.Is such a magical word.

"Friends are those who walk in when the rest of the world walk out"

Friends. Is a very sparkling word.
I can't believe there are people out there who misuse it.
I was reading my cousin's blog just now. It's.. kinda sad. Really. But my cousin's a strong girl. I salute her for that.

After reading her post, the word "friends" crossed my mind. Maybe my school is just full of bitches or maybe many people just can't understand what the word "friends" means. They say ladies can't stop themselves from bitching. That's true. Gossips in my school is like rice. Everyone needs it, everyone wants it.

I'm not saying I'm perfect. I bitch about people too. But just never my best friends, those who treat me well and sincere. Good friends are indeed hard to find. I'm lucky to have 2 best friends whom I really value a lot.

But,

at the same time, a friend, who WAS my best friend, left a scar as well as a lesson.
People used to say she NEVER stay loyal to her friends.
I defended her.
And then I realise she never value me as much as I valueD her.

Until today, I can't say that I forgive her.
I never forgive someone unless she regrets.
And she never.

She kinda forget herself.She forgets who she was, the girl who had everything and did nothing.

I did something and I got something. I got a lesson.
A lifetime lesson.
And I got a scar.

"I need my friends because I need them to give me a big hard slap to wake me up when I am asleep"

Some Bloody Politicians They Are.

"He quits because I can't satisfy his greed"

Very insulting. That statement is by one of the fellow politicians. SAPP quits BN. That's it. Why go around blaming parties that quit? The society is very wrong. Or rather the government is having attitude problems. They need to fix their mind. It's a stupid thing to put the blame on other people when they lose the votes. Yes, they blame the world but never themselves.

Change what has to be changed, idiots.

Anyway, I shall stop crapping about politics. Moving on the a better topic, Fullmetal Alchemist chapter 84 is out! Alphonse might die. I think he should die. He death might give sparks to the story... okay, I don't want him to die. Still, he might be dying.

Buddha,why are some mangaka-s so good in storytelling?

No wonder my B.M. teacher taught us about presentation of the story/essay. She said," You may give a very normal, in fact, boring point, but what's more important is how you present your essay". I think is rather meaningful. I mean, look at all the Taiwanese drama, shojo manga, anime, American's TV series. They all have ... the same storyline.. over and over again. Somehow, what makes some of them so nice is the way it's presented. Like, for example, Ai Yazawa. They say she's a great narrator. If there's any mangaka in the world who would do the same storyline as her, I don't think I'm gonna love it. Ai Yazawa always has this very great talent of narrating a story. No wonder I find her story irresistible.

"I want Jimmy Choos and D.O.Ds for my wedding "

A place where art is still appreciated: My heart.

"Polite is a nice way of being rude. That's why people like it."

Recently, I've been very attracted to purple colour. I don't know why.It's such a special and attractive colour.
Anyway, I'm bored.

Finally, I know the reason why I still don't improve much in my drawing. Because I don't practice enough and I don't challenge new things. When I asked the 16-year-old Godly artist why he can draw so much better than me, he said, he's just like me, not talented. But because he practices a L0T, ask many questions and MANY more practices, he's got such a good result. Well, it's pretty obvious. I mean, he doesn't really look talented. It's all hard work.

So, I've set new goals.
The main one is to draw my very own comic in two years. Which I then advanced to 6 months.
Another one is... to join a drawing competition and to emerge as champion.

Adam Khoo said we should set seemingly impossible goals. And then we should arrange the strategy. He said he didn't achieve his goals at first. I mean, it's common sense. You are never good when you're a first-timer. Stuart Tan was humiliated when he gave speeches.

Anyway, since I've set my goals already(together with strategies), I can start taking action. It's the biggest step, also the one that I'll get distracted. Still, I'm going to start observing other people's work and practise a lot on perspective. Teehee..

One stupid mood which I'm having right now is that I hate to study despite the truth that famous comic artists are smart people. That's because I want to jump off from the aeroplane, go to The One Academy and draw everyday. I dream of that everyday, like right now. Then I have to slap myself to wake up and tell myself that I still have 2 years to go. It's not that I hate Form 4, it's challenging .. but it's just that not seeing the word "Pendidikan Seni" in my timetable is a kind of suffering. Sigh... I want to leave school right now...

Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose" -Albert Einstein-

I love this quote. I should give it to smart people.

I Miss Them.

"I want to stand up for myself."

That's it. I miss my camp friends. I want to go back to IAG. I miss my coaches. I miss my members. I miss my friends. I miss all the challenges. I was reading all the magic letters posted to me and suddenly felt like crying. Except I don't . I really really miss them. I want to go to IAG so much. The coaches. The friends. The trainers. Adam Khoo. They're all nice people.

If it weren't for them, I might not be able to control my emotions so much better than last time. If I didn't go to that camp, I might not appreciate my family, friends, teachers. If it weren't for them, I might not aim for scholarships and be a freelancer. I admit, before I went to that camp, I was afraid. Since freelancer is not an easy job, I was thinking to quit. *sniff,sniff*

I MISS ALL OF THEMMM!! *buuuhhuuuuuhuuuuu*

I remember the swinging log. I remember how brave I was. I remember all the mind maps. I remember the jokes. I remember who I love the most. I remember what I promised to myself.

*sniff...sniff* I would cry anytime right now if I have a friend beside me.

"There's no lazy people, only unmotivated." -Adam Khoo-

I'm Hooked.

"Shitty Politicians have no pride."

I'm hooked with blogs.
I can't believe that I hated blogs. Now, I'm soooooo hooked with blogs. It's so nice to have a public diary of yourself. Anyway, I'm quite happy with the new layout. It's easier to manage and I finally added my friends' name into my page. I didn't know they added me already. In fact, I didn't even know they actually updated ... their blog. Well, can't blame it on me since they kept saying that they have not enough time ( or rather, lazy) to update their Blogger blogs.

Speaking of art yesterday ( refer to the previous post), I have plans of applying scholarship to UK after studying in XX Art School. Go to my Friendster blog to see my life plan.Actually I've been planning all the way but I didn't want to give myself a BIG pressure on art. Afterall, I should enjoy art. Not struggling to be the best. But last week, my art teacher said he actually went to UK to further his art course last year(more stories about him later). So I thought maybe I should apply scholarship to UK too. There's only one thing which is stopping me.. oh well, in fact, many things. One of it is that I want to be a comic artist faster. Sigh... life is sure hard when it concerns about your future. Getting a scholarship is not an easy task. And I don't want to make myself hate art. Like what I did with my studies.

Anyway, back to art teacher, he said he actually went to UK to further his studies last year. He said he actually decided to stop teaching. But when he arrived in UK, his passport and money were all stolen. He had to come back immediately. He said if his passport( and money) is still with him, he would not be teaching us today. He said he would ask someone to substitude him. I admit I was secretly happy when he said his passport was stolen or else, I need not take art for my SPM.... I can't think of anyone who's far better than him. I went to his art class since I was in Standard 3 and then I stopped when I was in Form 1. After that, I went back when I started Form 4.

My mom just phoned back and told me to ... well, clean my long and oh-so-messy table. It's really full of shit. But I have to say part of them are my older sister's things. And I have to clean it for her. If I am a superwoman(which is why it's impossible), I would grab her all the way back to our house and ask her to clean it too.
Sigh... I have to go clean it now. Baboi.

"Nothing is impossible, just unrealistic."

Godly. Art.

Art is very Godly. God is very art-ly.

That's very true. Art is very Godly. At least for me. I just went to one of my friends' Deviantart account and he's an amazing artist. And he's only sixteen. Same age as me. This makes his art very Godly. Here's one of his art:

And here's my art:

Notice the BIG difference?

He's very Godly although my art did improve for the past few years. He knows Michael Chuah!! God, he knows Michael Chuah!! And he was commented by Michael Chuah!! Do you know how hell famous Michael Chuah is?!!!

Gosh.. I am hyperventilating... this is just too amazing. A 16-year-old boy who's art is as good as a profesional comic artist. This is unbelievable. By the way, he's not really what I call as friend. He doesn't even know me. It's just that he watches me in Deviantart so I assume we're friends. We're both sixteen but such contrast is very.. what I call as humiliating. Obviously I do not practice enough.

Sometimes I think I'm too narrow-minded. I can't really accept critics. Though I've learn to accept others' advice, there are still times when I got angry. Sigh... I've got to practice more.

You can visit that boy's Deviantart here.
Sneak peak on a few artist I like:

By:Rain By:shel-yang By:kiDchan