And some people take up jobs that they don't study

The future is one of the scariest thing I could think of. It's always so vague, so much expectation but at the same time, so much fear of disappointment. 

I've always thought about the future since I was young. Probably more than my friends. I've always thought of the dream I have, dream that I want to live in. I've always thought of the life I've wanted to lead since I was young. 

Since I was 13, I've always wanted to get to an art school. It's been my dream to take up designing. It's something that I've always prepared myself. I want my future to be good, to be perfect. Not perfect in such a way that I want to get a perfect job with perfect income. Perfect in such a way that I can do something I really love in my life. I think about the job that I want to do more than the husband I want to marry to. Not that I've never thought about my future husband though (future husband, if you are reading this post... err.. hi! ), just that I really want to lead a life that I can really enjoy.

 

But at the same time, it's scary to see how in the end, a lot of people out there end up finding jobs that have absolutely no connection to what they studied. What's even scarier is how the society will judge them. Even if  you were to graduate with an engineering degree, it's not a guarantee you will end up becoming an engineer. And when this happens, people will go like, "Tskk.. look at him, graduating with an engineering degree but end up doing up other jobs". 

Isn't it scary? It's scary how people judge us according to what we do, how people judge our life choices although our lives have absolutely nothing to do with them.

I don't know if I will end up becoming an architect.

 In fact, I've been visualising myself as a ... housewife (gulp).

 I think having a family is one of the greatest thing in life and I don't see any problem with becoming a housewife. In fact, my respect just shot up really high for housewives. Cooking for the people you love is something that's really lovely. Cleaning your house for the people you love is also something that I think is really lovely. Just staying at home waiting for your kids and husband to get home so that they eat the food you prepare, sit on the sofas you clean, sleep on the bed you make, walk on the floor you mop, is really really lovely. : D

I think it's really important that for once, we stop judging people for their life choices. No one should ever think that education is a guarantee in life. An education doesn't make you get a job you want. You life choices do. And so what if you don't end up doing things you studied? What's wrong with that? A lot of things happen in the society and sometimes we face difficulties and will have to make choices we never expect ourselves to make. 

Things I Did Not Expect Myself To Do 2

It's the final week and all my assignment need to be submitted this coming week. T.T

But I guess everything is still quite ok as I only need to focus on my designing assignment for the week. In fact, I don't know what I want to blog about but it needs to be filled up, haha. 

I've been quite stressed with my results and work for these couple of weeks and one main reason is because I think I have pretty bad time management this semester. And also, there are so many things to learn in such a short time, my brain can't absorb all of them. I've also been so careless in my work (tsk, super duper careless calculations) and other stuffs (like almost losing stuffs, forget this, forget that) I'm beginning to feel sooo bad of myself. Myself, y u so unorganised?! 

But then the positive me is trying to balance out everything. I'll just need to improve on my time management for future semesters (will never leave work till the last minute again!) and make sure I'm more organised. 

Other than that, life is still good. 

And so, this is the things I do not expect myself to do part 2:

Going for performance

Because my friends are in choir and they invited us for ochestra performance, so I get to go for the first time. It's not my type of music but I think it's a really great learning experience! : D Thanks again, Quek Ying and Ian! Melbourne Town Hall is also really pretty with the architecture. After going, I think that..... ok la, I don't really have any thoughts of it. It's not something that I will get obsessed with but I don't mind going it again (only if the ticket is incredibly cheap or even better, free). 

Heh, it's so naise. I don't know if it's just me or what, but everytime when I'm in an old building I can't help but think what it felt like when people in the past used the place, how they interact with the place, how their lives revolved around that place and it makes me really really want to travel back through time to see. 

Going to a really ulu place for assignment

One thing really fun and exciting about taking this course is that I get to travel around for my assignments. My groupmates and I went to this really ulu place for our assignment. We had to do soil tests, observations of landscape etc and omg, I feel like an aspiring geologist! But haha, in fact, I didn't really know what I was doing, I was pretty blur on what was happening. That place is quite far from the city, the most isolated place I've ever been to, with no people or whatsoever. It's a little scary cos the park also doesn't have much signboards and only trees, grasses and a few kangaroos can be seen. And also, we had to depend on a map that doesn't really show much information to walk around the big park. But then I'm finally back in one piece, yay! It's still quite fun and exciting, going to somewhere I don't know. 

Cute kangaroos moving around the place! And it's really cute how when they saw us, they didn't move and just kept staring at us. Had a staring competition with one them. I lost. 

Not sleeping the entire night

People used to tell me that this is like a must for all archi student. Couldn't agree more. So it's not really under my list of unexpected things, haha. I've already expected it. It's really funny how some friends who really care about me think that it's a really tiring and stressful thing to do it. But in fact, before I chose this course, I was already prepared for the consequences that I'm going through. Or else, I wouldn't have chosen it. I am aware of things that I have to give up and in fact, I give them up willingly and happily. It's part of our life to rush for assignments, I'm learning to cope with it. Maybe I just need better time management and try not to let stress of assignments to get in my way of life. Stress is something that I'm going to live with for pretty much the few decades of my life and there's no way I can avoid them. So then, I think I'm just going to live my way through it, as long as I learn to control temper, frustrations and all the negative feelings. Go, power of being positive! 

And I think these are the only things I could think of right now. Couldn't think of anymore stuffs and if I do, I'll just do it in the next post. Gotta rush my assignments, so goodbye! :)

Things I Did Not Expect Myself To Do

Life is more exciting when you do something unexpected. 

So flunyway, after coming here, I've done a lot of things I would not expect myself to be doing. And here's a list of them. 

Cooking

Never in my life would I ever imagine myself cooking in the past. Usually, my housemates were the ones cooking for me back in A-Levels. It was a disadvantage for me, of course. I love saving money and yet I can't cook, what a contradictory thing. So then I decided to man up (or woman up in this case) and get near the kitchen and do something about it. And boy... it isn't as bad as I think. :) It's quite fun actually. It's not like I make super nice food but at least they're edible and do not make weird things to my stomach

So this is the Japanese curry I tried out the other day. It could improve of course (since it was a little tasteless) but I was so happy I didn't burn the kitchen down. And it isn't that hard actually, just buy meat and potato (and preferably onions too), cut them up, cook them, add water, then add curry cubes. It's easy. And I'm sorry if the pictures actually disgusts you or what.. cos I last minute only remember to take picture one.

And this is the fried rice and potato balls I did. The potato balls very easy only one la. It is actually mashed potato and I made them into balls cos they look cuter.

And I also made spaghetti but didn't take a picture of it. And then I realise one of the nicest things when cooking is when you share your food with others. No wonder some people want to be chef. I totally get why people want to take up hospitality course now! The kind of feeling when people are satisfied with the food you cook is awesome! If only I am rich enough, then I can cook a lot and give people but then cos I kiam siap, no money, can't even feed myself so.. haha, no food for others.

Eating 
I've been eating so much lately it is so scary. Like, a lot. This is the kind of time I thank God and my parents for creating me thin enough to eat a lot of things. My grandma once told me I have the luck of eating. Now that I think back, it's so true. I can eat without getting fat, making a lot a lot of girls out there super jealous. I did gain weight (I think) for these 2 months but it's a good sign, yay! But it scares me sometimes because maybe I will get fatter and fatter until one day I have to control my eating like other people too then I will die cos I love food too much. It's almost literally my husband now. I've come to appreciate food more than ever, seriously. I think food is something very heavenly and when you're a student, food is very precious (in fact, even if you're not, food should be really precious too). If a guy were to propose to me, I dowan some gold expensive ring because I can't eat it. I want food. Even if give me gold ring also I'll probably sell it to buy more food. So I don't get why people will waste food, like not finishing their plate of food and leave it like that, then throw it away. Like, when I see food like this, I feel damn sad for the food can. If cannot finish, can give to friends (I don't mind becoming the rubbish bin, you can give me) or at least, have a takeaway so you can eat at home. Unless the food is soooooo bad you really cannot stand eating it, then I got nothing to say la. Like what my mom taught me about food, only eat the amount you can. If you think you can't finish them all, then don't order.



It's getting late here now, I've got a class tomorrow. There are also other unexpected things I want to post but then since I'm quite tired, I'll split it into another post. So tata, sayonara, babai, selamat tinggal, 再见!

You Gotta Love The Things You Do

I'm supposed to be doing my assignment (need to start on with the model because it's gonna take a lot of my time) but then tsk... I'm inspired to update this thing. Besides, I've got awesome blog layout I don't want it to go to waste by not updating it. 

So the thing is, I've been so happy these 2 months here. Honestly, there isn't a day when I'm sad. I'm so happy I'm starting to get freaked out by my own happiness. I think partly is because I've got awesome good bunch of friends who never fail to make me laugh. 

Another part, is because I love what I'm doing now. 

And then I realise how important it is to love what we're doing in life. I've waited since I was 13 (or around 14) to get into a design course. Sure, architecture is not something I'd imagine myself doing. But then I've grown to love it, even though I've just dealt with it for 2 months. The awesome feeling when I'm designing something, the kind of feeling when I'm drawing, when I crack my head for ideas, and keep solving problems and improvise on them. It makes me think that nothing's impossible. I love creating new things that I never thought I could do. It's called happiness, muahaha. 

I once read before that "Doing what you do is freedom, loving what you do is happiness". Today, I fully understand what this quote means. I can't say if this interest of mine is going to last as I have not get into my major. I'm only a year 1 student and our major starts in Year 2. I've heard of even heavier load of work in the future so who knows, I might not be able to handle the workload. But as of right now, I really really love what I'm doing. I may not be the best designer (and in fact I always think that I'm never good enough) but I love the fact that I keep on improving and doing my best for each project. 

... this is why my dear, it is so important to love what you do and do what you love. Because they make you happy. Isn't that what life is all about in the end? Things that we always fight for in our life, doesn't matter what we fight for, whether it's for money, job security, family, materials; eventually we just want to be happy. It's ironic how some people keep fighting for things but they end up being unhappy in the process.

I understand that not everyone has the choices to choose (for that, I thank my parents who have the ability to let me choose what I want today). I have friends who end up choosing things they might not like, courses that they do not enjoy.  But no matter what, I think it is really important to appreciate what you're doing, because for me, there's no waste in education. I've never regretted all the subjects I learnt in my life, although most are not related to what I'm studying now. What we do may not be what we like initially, but if we take a second to appreciate our assignments, tests, lectures and all the things we learnt, we have pretty darn good amount of knowledge in us. 

Thus, you might not be able to do what you love, but at least, try to love what you do. And if you die die also want to do things you love, then fight for it. If you were to give up on it, then learn to love things you don't love. 

"Do you eat bread everyday?"

It's funny how people keep asking if each of my meal consist of only bread now that I'm in Melb. Or if I eat a lot of Western meals. And they have this impression that I eat lots of pasta and fish and chips here. Friends keep asking me if I have lots of Aussie friends and if I can fit in here. 

They have this impression that they place I live in is like in another different part of the world and everything is would be sooo different. 

Pfft.. the truth is, I feel like I'm in Asia. In fact, it's not much different from my life in Subang. No, I don't have any culture shock. 

Why? 

Because Melbourne is full of Asians that I even made a tagline for it; Melbourne: Asian Invasion! 

And also, I don't have any Aussie friend because.. I'm forever alone liddat. 

No lah, I do have but just classmates I guess, not that kinda hang out type one. 

My uni is just so full of Asians, so I met the Asians and we became friends. 

And there're so many Malaysians here, there're so many Malaysian food (but of course, never as good as Melaka's), and seriously, please don't have any high expectations that I'm staying in a really cool place which is only filled with ang mohs. 

I eat more sushi than I even did in my 20 years of life. Japanese food is the one of the cheapest and economical food, it's pretty much sold for poor students like us. We cook rice everyday so I actually eat home cooked food almost everyday (but of course again, not as naise as my mom's). And I also pack my own food to uni also almost everyday so it's not like I get to eat at some  really nice amazing Western food everyday in some really nice amazing restaurant (and it's expensive too). 

Therefore, my dear friends who are wondering what kind of interesting and exciting life I have here, it's a really really really normal life. T.T

But still, it's really wonderful here because friends are all so cool and great. And also the weather getting pretty good these couple of days and that makes me happy too! Yay for good great weather!!

Massive Update

...I'm not dead yet, still alive.

Life's been hectic because I've started classes and I feel like my life is changing 180 degrees... because in my last post I was still in holiday mood, everyday stay at home and do nothing. And now that uni has started, I met so many new and cool friends that I feel so great. 

And because there're so many updates in this one month, I'll just compact them all in this post.

1. I didn't really update in Facebook or tell my friends (except really close friends and friends who ask) where I'm at right now... so I guess you people don't know (but people who read this blog are good friends and they probably already know, haha). I'm in University of Melbourne taking up architecture course. Not officially an archi student yet but I'm gonna major in it next year (die die also I will fight through this course!) 
2. Winter is ending (but there's no snow for those people who wonder) but the 2 weeks were so cold I that I actually miss the sun in Melaka (and I used to hate the sun there T.T). But well, spring is almost here and soon leaves will come out of the trees and flowers will start blooming, muahahaha... 
3. Life is SUPER GREAT. That's because I met the nicest bunch of friends here. :) Everyone is soooo damn friendly and it makes me feel really good. I am actually happy studying here and enjoying every moment of it. Everyone has this positive vibe about them and I think I got infected and every morning I wake up, I'm actually looking forward to the day that comes... seriously, I've never felt so happy and contented in my life!
4. Life as an archi student is really hectic. For those who are planning on taking it, I'll just give you the advice my seniors gave me: BE PREPARED FOR THE LACK OF SLEEP (and not sleeping the entire night.. for couple of days). Haha, but I really enjoy designing and rushing my assignments. :) In fact, it's been my dream since I was 14 to ... rush for design assignments. The adrenaline rush.. muahaha.. sometimes, I would feel like giving up because it feels like I just can't finish it on time but when I do, I feel damn proud of myself. My designs are not very good and my model is ugly even but it's my own work and I can see my own life through them. 
5. I don't know why but I feel like my life is changing. I don't know how and what it changes to but after coming here, I feel so happy and grateful with all the things I have and people I meet in my life. I'm taking the change as good thing. I feel more positive and more open-minded and I love myself even more! It's like, I want to improve myself and be a better person. I keep making reflections of the mistake I've done in the past and try to improvise as much as I can now to make myself a better person. Omg ... I'm so positive it's a little scary! And even though I don't understand most of my lessons, I keep telling myself that it's ok because it's only my first 2 months here. And it actually works. Not like I'm happy all the time, I do have sad times too (when I have no idea what the lecturer is talking and when I feel like I can't finish my assignments) but it's so easy to control my emotions that I can make myself happy again in a short time. 

I love Melbourne. It's such an amazing place. Maybe not exactly amazing la, because I live in the city and at the most happening street... it somehow takes the excitement away (because I walk there to and fro everyday) but maybe it's because I'm so happy that I love this place nao.  Heh heh, I love my life. 

The place I'm staying at is opposite this train station so how can I not love this place :)

... I guess the massive update is not that massive afterall but well, good to see that I'm still alive. 

I would've posted more pictures but most are taken from just my phone and then uploaded to Instagram which  are not in HD. I dowan to pollute my blog with filtered photos which are not HD so haha.. there won't be much pictures cos I don't always bring my camera out. 

And I'm going to make a new tutorial soon, I guess.. that depends if my life is packed and if I have mood to update this so.. tata, till we meet again (which I don't know is when)!

Why I Love Designing

A part of me still can't believe I'm going to take architectural design. 

That part of me is so excited that I can finally be part of the creative and designing field. Architecture has never been my first choice but I don't know when I finally made up the decision to take it and be really firm about it. I'm so firm about this decision probably because the better chances of future prospects somehow makes me less worried and at the same time I could still do something I love, designing. :)

It makes me so happy everytime I think that I'm going to be a design student and this time be wholly involved in the creative field and make impossible things possible. Although everyone keeps telling that I need to be prepared because it's going to be a challenging course but then I'm somehow looking forward to it. Ahhh.. the sweet feeling when I'm breaking my head to design a building and make it possible in real life. 

I'm not exactly the best when it comes to designing but it's what that forms part of my personality and shapes me as a different individual. That kind of feeling when a certain stuff designed by me has got my own style and personality and still practical makes each design so meaningful. 

I thought about taking other courses besides designing and my second unrelated field is economics. But then I couldn't imagine my life without designing or doing other fields. 

Muahahaha... so the miserable life (as said by so many people) as a female architecture student (and there're some people who are so surprised I chose this course cos they think it's not very suitable for girls) .. come to me, babeh... come to me!! I will go through it. I will go through the future sleepless and tiring lifeeeee!!!

Singapore

It's been almost a monnnttthhh I haven't updated my blog. 

Those dasperate posts about why I don't have any readers... now I know why.. T.T

I was so busy searching for housing rentals :( It's what I do everyday once I switched on the computer. 

Now that I have a little time, these are the few pictures of Singapore. I know almost everyone's been there before so I think ... there's nothing much for me to explain. 

My relative there opens a cafe so we had free naise awesome food. :) I don't usually eat pasta but that pasta was one of the best I've eaten. I forgot the names but I'll give you the address at the end of the post.. you go there and find these food yourself la. 

Walked along Orchard Road and saw someone giving free hugs. But I didn't go hug the fella cos later my mom and gandma got so shocked at close physical contacts with strangers, haha.. 

This is their Marina Bay Sands shopping centre. I was so tired of all the same clothes brands over in KL and Singapore. I've been shopping so much lately that I don't find the excitement in clothes anymore.. because they're all the same, from Channel to the auntie selling clothes in pasar malam (except the auntie one I can afford, the Chanel one I cannot.. haha)

Suddenly at one part of the shopping centre, got water coming down from the ceiling one... I might go to hell for saying this.. but I don't know what's so impressive about this water coming down (maybe I'm just too shallow). It was noisy and rough. There were surrounding cafes and people probably want a quiet place to sit down for a coffee. They might not want to hear loud water sounds coming down from the ceiling. 

We came out of the Louis Vuitton building. Heard that it's Asia's biggest branch. 

Annnddd this is their lotus shaped ArtScience Museum. I love this lovely simple futuristic building. But I'm not so sure why they want it to be shaped lotus though. Probably their national flower but isn't it .. orchid? Correct me if I'm wrong, haha. 

There were so manyyyy lotus around the pond and they're so beautiful :)

.. That's pretty much how the entire trip was. I didn't go to Sentosa or the Universal Studio cos no time. So I only went to Orchard Road and MBS. 

Flunyway, if you happen to be a Singaporean or is at Singapore, you might want to visit my relative's cafe in 313@Somerset, Level 4 and it's called Blue Mountains Cafe. 

That's all for today's post, tata! : D

How Others Think of Me

I think one thing that people tend to misunderstand about me is that.. I'm an angry person. 

Oh, come on, I'm a friendly person! I'm so friendly even Buddha is touched by my friendliness... come on, I'm good, I don't bite.. I don't bite.. I SAID I DON'T BITE! NOW YOU COME HERE AND HUG ME AND SMILE AT ME AND SAY HI, YOU BITCH!!!

Pfft.. haha, no seriously, I think that's what a lot of people think about me. I've had people coming to tell me about it. Maybe it's not misunderstanding, probably that's who I am. After all, our actions reflects our personality. 

I was just looking back at all the past things I posted in Facebook. Some comments made by me ... are not exactly things that I'm proud of myself. Back in secondary school, I've had pretty angry moments too and I handled them pretty badly. I think everyone has angry moments too, not just me. It's just that what differentiate people's personalities is what they act towards a lot of situations. Now that I'm older (slightly, only very very slightly), sometimes I keep warning myself of my own emotions. I would keep telling myself to calm down and it's just heat of the moment. I think mostly is because last year I've had gone through some emotional setbacks liddat I started learning a lot of things. Nowadays, I keep telling myself that I must not act in a rush because I'll regret my actions and that it will reflect my poor personality. And one way to keep me from being pissed off, is actually to be as happy as possible. 

Because honestly, I've come to realised that I'm someone who doesn't like it when things are not under my control. :( Well, I'm aware that I'm young. Old men said young people mah, always very hot-blooded. I'm not trying to give myself an excuse or what (okay, maybe I'm) but if I don't, I will keep blaming myself and feel bad about it. 

Some friends (who are courageous enough to tell me and not scared that one day I'll hire a serial killer to kill them) told me how they didn't like me based on first impression. And I'm pretty sure not everyone in school likes me in the past. I mean, after all, I was pretty.. I hate to say this, fierce. They only started feeling better towards me when they've come to know me after some time. Okay, to defend myself, I had to act a little tough in the past because I didn't want the librarians to get disrespectful or what. But over the time I realised that I probably was just searching for excuses. In fact, being fierce is not the best way to get people to respect you. There're a lot happier and better ways too! 

I guess throughout life, we make mistakes that we're not proud of. I've done a lot of mistakes (angry mistakes) when I was younger. But I don't think I regretted them because well, that was who I'm in the past. If I could turn back time, I would of course wish that I would tell myself not act that way. But that's only if the current me would tell the past me of the consequences of my actions if I behave in certain ways.... but real life is not like that.  So, sometimes, in life we've just got to be thick-skinned to make mistakes. 

I guess only by doing mistakes we realise that we're not perfect and not expect perfections. Only then also we wouldn't be a snob and would learn to be more humble. :) 

So, for those people whom I offended in the past, trust me, I didn't mean to. I'm really really sorry. I got angry quite quickly at things when they don't go my way (which is why I'm doing my best to change now) so if I've screamed at any innocent person at any point of my life, I'm sorry. 

I get emotional really quickly without judging the facts first so for those who are again, innocent, but got almost got bitten by me, I'm really sorry too. 

For those who was hurt by my actions and behaviours, I'm really sorry that I affected your lives. 

For close friends who still do not judge me despite my actions, I really thank you guys because I'm amazed that I still have friends despite my personality. Honestly, sometimes, when I think about my life, I feel lucky. I still have friends who are actually talking to me, laughing with me (sometimes laughing at me). Because well, I've seen some people who doesn't have true friends. I don't know if my friends actually secretly hate me at my back or what (like backstabing drama all those) but my instincts told me they're all pretty good. :) 

They might not like me all the time but I guess that's life.

 I used to think that people need to like my everything. For example, they need to think I'm all perfect to like me and I have no weaknesses. When they think I have a weakness, I'll assume they hate me. Until today, I still feel the same. Which is badddd, because it means I don't take criticism very well. And it's even worse because I'm going to be in the creative field which involves a lot of criticism. :( Flunyway, I'm learning to realise that I shouldn't take things so personally. Friends knowing the good and bad of me might not be such a bad thing afterall. It means that they've already known me so well, they know the whole of me. And they're just concerned about me : D

... It isn't easy for me to update this post. It takes quite some courage to post something so personally of me. I don't even know if any even bothers to read till here (because well.. I don't have much readers to begin with). But it's a relief at the same time because I know some friends will read it and at least, got my apology reached. :) 

 

Nails Tutorials so Easy You Can Bleed (3) : Gradient Nails

I actually think that my nails tutorials are really normal tutorials. Like, you can find all these tutorials easily from Youtube because they're all so normal. They probably have even better tutorials cos' it's video format, would be better to follow up.

Flunyway, I do my best with what I can. Because most tutorials are done by experts in the Youtube, so I think a lot of times, they seem easy to do it but when you try it yourself, it's actually a lot more difficult. And because I'm not an expert in this, so heh, I'll have similar experience and problems with you guys too and together, we solve them! : D

Today's tutorial is gradient nails! 

I did once before. I never really liked making gradient nails, I don't know why. Probably because they're too simple looking. I always prefer something challenging cos so hard to do and that's the fun part of it! 

Did it once before using fake OPI maroon and The Face Shop's gold colour. 

If you're a beginner in doing this nail gradient, I would recommend you to just use shiny colours first. Because opaque colours are well, more opaque.. it's usually harder to apply. You will also see scratches colours and uneven colours if you use opaque colours, so it's a little bit more difficult. If you use shiny ones however, their shine will cover up everything else, and it will look perfect even with the first try!

But well, when making this tutorial, I wanted to try using opaque colours so I'll be using these colours this time: 

From the left:

1. The Face Shop top coat. 
2. Elianto White Colour (that I do not quite recommend, hard to apply and thickens a little after only  couple of months)
3. Etude House baby blue (really cute colour! Nice shade of light blue. Would be perfect if you want to draw a sky. But then it's not very opaque, you might need to have at least 3 coats so that colour is better looking. But fairly easy to apply and drying time is reasonable too!)

And what you need is a facial cotton. 

Because my explanations are kinda complicated actually (suck at explaining this), I'll just brief to you how it's actually done:

At first, you paint later one, then layer and lastly layer 3. Yeah, so this is basically the overall idea towards the entire thing. Now, you can read my more detailed explanations. :D
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Okay, so first is of course, paint your base colour. I'm using the Etude House's baby blue for this.

Painted about 3 to 4 coats to get such even nice colour. But at least it dries fast.

Then now I painted the facial cotton with white at the end. There's no need to put too much paint on it. Just a suitable amount. Ya, just read what I wrote in the pictures la. 

Remember, less is better because if it's less, you can add more. But if it's more, you can't undo and have less! That's because I'm going to dab the cotton onto my nails. And because it's gradient, I'll want to make sure that as I dab more, the colour gets lighter. So that's why you can't dab too much colours. 

Okay, this is the first layer that you going to dab. Follow what I say in the picture. Have to add the second layer after that so that the white looks more obvious. Don't worry if it looks ugly now or you see uneven surface. We'll settle that later. As you go down, just tap really gently on your finger so that, you know, the white gets lighter.

Then you add on the second layer. You see this picture ah, the part marked with number 1 is the first layer. And the second layer is number 2. The second layer, you just dab until the middle of your nails, no need to dab till end.

Then you add in the third layer. You can also used the same step as in layer 1 and 2 (that means dab using the cotton). But if the colour that comes out is not opaque enough, then this is what you can do:

Paint like how you paint normal nails using its brush but of course, only the top part (layer 3). There's no need to put too much colour on it or else it looks thick and doesn't look like it blends well.
Remember, only use this way when dabbing using cotton is not opaque enough for you.

You might feel like small little cotton "threads" (I dunno what it's called. If anyone knows, please tell me) on your nails. You will feel it when you do it yourself. What you do is that you remove them .

Like this. Thank god for my clear semi-pro Nikonnnnnnn, I can shoot this small little stuff so clearly!!!
Flunyway, yeah, what you do is to remove them slowly because when you paint your top coat over, or when you paint your layer 3 (painting normally using brush one), it might mess up your colours.

This is how it looks like after I added the third layer using the brush.

Okay, so now, if you realised that the third layer's top part isn't blending that well, like if it's too thick (so it somehow looks like there's a line when it shouldn't because well, it's supposed to be a gradient), what you can do is to take your brush (make sure it does not have excess nail polish) and tap a little downwards. I'm soooo sorry I didn't take a picture of this direction.. but I drew an ugly picture as your guidance.

Pleasseeee excuse my ugly drawing. I'm never good drawing using my tablet (cos too lazy to practise). Dab lightly at these parts:

Dab at around where my black dots are... pretty much at parts where you you think the blending is not enough. And then you're done with the gradient! As you can see from the pictures, the nails have rough surface and ugly like hell.

All you need to do, is to put on a layer of top coat! And then the surfaces will turn shiny! :)

This is how it looks like after top coat! You can paint 2 layers of it if you think that there's still some rough surface.

My explanations are soooo complicated I don't even know if you actually understand what I'm explaining. It might look complicated but ... it's really simple. A lot of times, I'm only predicting what problems might happen and how to solve them so chances are, you will be fine doing it and will turn out beatutiful.

Flunyway, enjoy! If you don't understand my explanations.... probably you can just go Youtube and watch! XD