Women

Right now, it feels like as if I'm using a brand new computer. Ahh..those freaking problems that I experienced from my computer is now allllllllll gone! Yiippeee!!

So anyway, result's in about 2 days and most people are nervous. And you know what?

I'm not nervous at all. I don't know why. You know, I used to get all those nightmares when I had my UPSR and PMR. Frankly, now, I'm so darn relaxed. I'm more of excited, actually. Cos' I'll be seeing all my friends and my teachers and my juniors.

So, flunyway, now that result's coming out, those aunties, uncles, ah soh and anyone who's favourite hobby is talking will bombard a lot of questions to innocent teenager like us. For example:

1.  Whoa.. result's coming out right? You're so smart,sure will get straight As one lah. I know you're clever. I'm very confident with you.
   (Adults nowadays don't know how much they're inserting pressure in us by saying this.)
2. So, how many As do you think you will get? 7As? Or 8 As?? 
 

When the result's out: 

1. Whoa.. see? I know you will get good results. I mean, even before the results are out, I know already you will get this good.
2. Aiya...you know, SPM isn't everything. At least you've tried your best. It's okay if it's not so good.
   (This is what happens when it's not so good)
3. What presents do you want me to give you? 
4. So, what course are you going to take?
5. Don't you have anything you're interested in?
6. See, I know you're going to take medicine. You're so smart, of courselah medicine's for you. Now, we have a doctor in our family.

Things that people will most probably ask so get ready to answer all these. Taking results are not so scary, frankly speaking. I always think what's ahead is always scarier, especially when we don't know what will happen in the future. It's not necessarily a bad thing though. Adventures are good in it's own ways.

It's just that sometimes when I think about it, we girls have rather not so good life. They say we might have entered 21st century where girls have more power over themselves. But still, at the end of the day, we're going to get married, aren't we? It's like, those dreams we had in younger times, we might not be able to achieve it. Some people choose not to get married but can we all survive until 80 not having partners?

We're going to have husbands and then have baby. We can't say that we wanna go out and realise our dreams but we leave our baby one side. It's called selfish. Some woman don't care if they're being called selfish but when you're a mom already, do you have the heart to leave your baby? Can you go out and "realise your dreams" from 8.00 in the morning until 12.00 at night? What are you going to do? Ask your husband to do all the housework, as him not to work and stay at home to be a househusband?

Do you even want a husband like this? Do you even want a husband who doesn't want to go out and explore or refuse to be manly enough to protect and ensure the family always financially stable? I'm not saying that this sort of man has no pride but not all girls like guys like this. Generally, girls like guys who can give them safety, a family and happiness. Of course, if you found a husband who's willing enough to let go off his work and then tell you, "I know you have dreams. Chase your dreams for this is what you want in life so just let me take care of the kids, do the housework and others. You can focus on your work"   then you're one hell of a lucky girl.

But the question is, how many guys out there are like this.Even if he is, is he your type?
So, at the end of the day, we girls have to get married and get a baby and we'll have to take care of our babies till they're able to stand on their own feet. This is not something that can be done in 5 to 10 years. It's not like when they're 5, then you can say, "I can finally do what I really want in life."

It's a lifetime responsibility. I definitely couldn't imagine myself having a family and say, "Right now, the most important thing in life is my family. Work is second to me. I am willing to sacrifice anything because I need to take care of my family."

But one day, this day will come. On the other hand, guys do not have to worry as much as we do. Because the one giving birth is not them, because we're actually still in the society where guys go out work and chase their dreams, while girls be at home to take care of the kids.

I don't want to be the sole breadwinner of the family either. I don't want to be what people out there say as powerful woman.

But I can't commit fully to only my family either. But if I don't, it would be unhealthy.

See, at the end, girls are still facing dilemma. We can't choose both but we can't choose one either. No matter what we choose, something ought to be sacrificed. 21st century? I think this problem is not something that can be solved in 5 years or 10 years.

It's something that we have to ask ourselves, what do we really want in life.