Random Stuffs

Life is full of "ifs". And I can't help thinking about it.

Sometimes (actually every time) we really do not know how great things are until we've already lost it. And then we wish how great if we are able to turn the clock anti-clockwise and we'll redo what we're doing.

And I can't believe I kinda miss school.

You know, those days when you actually wear uniform to school, when you wake up early in the morning and the Sun's not out, and you are bloody cold. Well, maybe I don't miss so much on this part. But, those.. morning fresh air and sunrise, before the bell rings.. ahh... okay larh.. to tell you the truth, I usually sleep in the morning when I arrived school. So frankly, I didn't really enjoy much of the sunrise and the fresh air. I mean, how can you enjoy fresh air when your homework's not done and you are sleepy but you can't sleep because you homework's not done? And if you don't finish it up, you will most probably.. oh, Buddha (or any God you want) .. let's not think about this.

Flunyway, yes, I sleep in the morning. Which is the reason why I hope that IF I'm given a chance, I would turn back and sleep less. A lot of "ifs".Like, if I can go back, I would appreciate every second I spent with my class, we would've done even better in gymnastraeda, done all my homework, get into the labs and enjoy every moment of it since I'm not entering anymore in my entire life, get better grade in my exams, spend more time with my friends, practise drawing more because my creative cells are dying (I don't even have that much from the beginning.. and they're dying) and many many more.

But life isn't so good. I know, and you know. But nevertheless, I did enjoy my last year in school because it makes think about things. I learnt that it's always too quick to judge a person if I've only met her a few times. I learnt that if I make a mistake, I have no excuses to make it right. And if I'm wrong, sorry is all it take to forgive. I learnt that it doesn't mean just because I have the courage to dream, then I have the courage to take action. And many more but I'm too lazy to think.

Flunyway, I have a question that I'll wanna ask you guys. You know, I've been thinking if I should keep my blog private. There are some stuffs that I would want to post up here for my friends but there are also some that I wanna post for the public. So, as a great friend of mine, what do you think I should do? Reply lorh..for the sake of me. Reply it in my chatbox, don't forget.

My Buddha, this is quite a boring post, right?