Reflections. to improve myself

People should know these stuffs about me. (That is, if they are my friends. Not enemies who have lots of free time hating people)

1. Ever felt like flashing your stuffs and showing of yourself sometimes? Well, that's what I often feel. Sometimes, I want to tell people that I have lots of manga a home(when, I don't really have that many), I am rich (when, I don't really save a lot, neither does my mom lets me spend money like running water tap) or I want to tell people that I am great. I should learn to be humble and understand that if I am that great, there are many greater than me. If I am pretty, there are many prettier than me. If I am smart, there are many smarter than me.
   
2. I feel like a selfish freak who cares only for herself most of the time. I think I should learn to be a bit more selfless and help people in need. I should also be more understanding and not be an ego. I should take experiences from anyone, even if she/ he is my junior and younger than me. I should stop assuming that the whole world owes me and I owe nothing to the world.
3. Sometimes, I am extremely rude, especially to my near and best friends. I would simply talk in an angry tone if I feel offended. Obviously, that hasn't help much in improving myself. Hence, I think I should not act according to emotions. Sometimes, if I reflect back whatever that happens, I realise it's my own fault and I've been behaving so rude.
4. The one thing which I should accept myself for who I am is that... I have an angry serious face. Maybe it's because I am rather hot-tempered (with pretty short patience), I am just plain unfriendly or sleepy or it's in my genes (or whatever reasons you can think of). Whatever it is, I should smile more because a smile a day keeps the sadness away. My angry serious face has caused a lot of misunderstanding among my friends. One of my friends told me that she was scared of me last time.. and I was like.. "Oh.. okay. Am I THAT scary??" And then only she realised I am not so scary after all. My librarians also thought that I was scary. When they knew me, only they realised I am more sampated than them. Sigh.. *sniff* I never knew I can be so scary.
5. Aside from being scary, I should stop getting so annoying. Because annoying people causes people to hate me and thus, supporting the reason why I appear to be scary and unfriendly.
   
6. I'm too grumpy in the morning. I should cheer myself up in the morning because my friends all deserve good morning greetings with a smile on my face.
7. I SHOULD STOP SAYING ABOUT HOW SLEEPY I AM ALL THE TIME. And about how little I sleep everytime although I get full 8 hours of sleep.
8. I've been talking really a lot and doing really little actions. I should motivate myself to take actions because without actions, I can't achieve my goals.
9. I've got to overcome my phobias of joining drawing competitions. I should have the courage to join competitions even if I draw badly and I don't win. And I should also cut the "beauty lies in the eyes of beholder so I don't need to join a competition to judge if I am good in drawing" crap.
10. I should start appreciating my friends when they push my to my limits. When they start asking, "Yeok Ho, what happens to your goals for this month?" or "Yeok Ho, I know you're not going to study. You say only one lah" , I have to be motivated to achieve my goals. Thus, thank you, Sherilynn, for the "Yeok Ho, I know you're not going to study. You say only one lah" motivation. (are you touched?!! Cry, Sherilynn, cry... )
    

Phew.. so much for my self-reflection.