月荷

"People who gossip to you will gossip about you."

I feel so bad right now.
I bitched about a friend whom I'm supposed to help.
I even bitched to.. one of the gossipy friend.
And she'll end up bitching that I bitched about a friend whom I'm supposed to help.
I mean, I am helping my friend sincerely.
I didn't know that I was bitching about her. I just told my friend what I saw. I told them that my friend so _________, so she should have _________.

Sigh.. I feel really really bad right now.
The guilt is poking deep into my heart. And it's so.. painful.
Even though I knew that, my friend is a little bit wrong too, I shouldn't have bitched about her.
*Sniff*
How can I afford to be such a bitch?
*sniff*
Buddha, forgive me. I didn't mean it.

I'm not wrong I must not justify my actions.
But I did it because she Oh shut me, I MUST not do any self-justification.(does self-justification has "-"?)

"I must learn to admit that I'm wrong."